Category: Life

Life, Parenting And Relationships

Grinding Axes

Anthony Dixon

Grinding Axes

Have you ever witnessed an extraordinary act of kindness  such as someone behind you in the checkout line offered to pay for your few items. Mind boggling to the skeptics trying to figure the motivation. There is nothing to figure some people believe that you do a good deed and you receive what you have sown. Some people their positive mental attitude is just that infectious, those are my kind of people no down bringers no Haters just people trying to get along with the rest of the World and not blaming it for their shortcomings. Some people they go to sleep angry and awake the same way, not even knowing why. My Mother was one that was great for paraphrasing, her favorite” an Ax to Grind” in this World there are too many Axes to Grind, Color, Socioeconomic, Religion and Gender to name a few.

It seems that once Cain’s hands were stained with Blood Mankind was never able to wash them clean and once our Minds contaminated with Hate that’s how it remains for Generations. Yet the Bible teaches to forgive and forget, Psychologists tells us in order to heal one should forget the hurt, let go and move on with your life. The bad part is those who need psychological help don’t seek it. All I know is if there were something eating at me for years and is pushing me over the edge to act on it, first I would seek help, if the Ax that I was grinding was consuming my every thought, pushing me to the edge Of destruction, I would check myself in voluntarily, why should I take innocent people with me. If there is a Virus within you kill it.

Grinding an Ax for years then acting out by killing a bunch of innocent people is the Cowardly thing to do, the brave thing is to recognize  what you have allowed yourself to become and eradicate the problem. I know that I am sounding Brutally frank  but the Saga never ends. September 2001 a Bunch of Fanatical Haters flew Planes into Buildings that my Coworkers were in, nine hundred of them perished. You think that we would take Head to how far Hate can push you and knowing that all those Fanatical Haters aren’t Dead, just laying low to strike again while we wallow in our own pettiness. Eleven years later yet another act of Terrorism, this time homegrown, make no mistake perpetrating hateful acts of crime on Society is nothing short of Terrorism.

The Sandy Hook Elementary School shooting occurred on December 14, 2012, in Newtown, Connecticut when 20-year-old Adam Lanza fatally shot 20 children between six and seven years old, as well as six adult staff members. Before going to the school, he shot and killed his mother at their Newtown home. This young man allowed the hate within to consume him, then he unleashed it on helpless innocent children. That’s what the hate virus do it makes you blame everyone except the one who owns the problem. Four years later the Pulse shootings,On June 12, 2016, Omar Mateen, a 29-year-old security guard, killed 49 people and wounded 53 others in a terrorist attack inside Pulse, a gay nightclub in Orlando Florida.

Orlando Police Department officers shot and killed him after a three-hour standoff, yet another Hater who hated Gays and anyone who doesn’t share his Faith.On February 14, 2018, a gunman opened fire at Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School in Parkland, Florida, killing seventeen students and staff members and injuring seventeen others. Witnesses identified nineteen-year-old former student Nikolas Cruz as the assailant, and he was arrested in Coral Springs by the Broward County Sheriff’s Office shortly after he escaped the scene; Cruz had purchased food at Walmart and McDonald’s restaurants after leaving the scene of the shooting. I guess he felt good about what he had just accomplished with no remorse, to the point where he could eat with lack of conscience.

Cruz confessed to being the perpetrator, and he was charged with 17 counts of premeditated murder and 17 counts of attempted murder. Police and prosecutors have not yet offered a motive and are investigating “a pattern of disciplinary issues and unnerving behavior”.  And so we have another case of the hate virus consuming its incubator. Being Molested at fourteen didn’t make me hate Gays to Massacre them being a victim of Police brutality didn’t make me hate all Cops, neither incidents left me an Ax to Grind.  I must be a Genius to have learned at an early age that there is good and bad in all walks of Life, and that Life wasn’t fair. While I see people around me Grinding Axes that were around before Jesus Christ, Nomads against Jews against Christians against Catholics against Protestants where does it ends. Get over it we will not all look alike, talk alike think alike or Worship alike, if you killed all of us who didn’t fit in your Box, who would there be to feed your little  Ego that you are better than a Cockroach with a Gun. Just talking about the Subject puts a damper on my good vibes and values remember you can’t teach values to your kids they learn from how you live your lives. If you grind Axes in front of your Kids don’t be surprised when they grow up with your sharpened Axes, whacking at Society.

Life

Out of The Box

Anthony Dixon

By losing yourself you might find that person you were meant to be, the Visionary, the Father, Son, Husband Lover and Friend, a Child of God who doesn’t believe the Universe lays down all it’s Overcoats at your Feet. Blending with your Universe is a Giant step in Losing yourself. You can’t go polluting everything you touch,  Minds included, not expecting repercussions, not Preaching but you only reap that which have been Sown.

We firmly believe that one should lose themselves to find themselves, Being perfectly wounded can easily snap. When I worked in the Resort industry two Days off, allowed me to go back Monday and deal with a new set of Rude People. Mother would say “kill them with kindness”.

Positive stroke, Guest calls you an Idiot

You, I’m sorry I don’t meet your expectations, but I am working hard on improving myself.

Don’t Draw Mason Dixon Lines among People, don’t Incite.

P.S.

If the intended wasn’t understood, simply put, Step out of the 📦.

 

 

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Life, Pollution/ Conservation

Save The Land

Anthony Dixon

 

Looking across the Bay, I see Bridges Built on the Ocean’s Floor, strong enough to endure most Natural Disasters. Distance further I see the Remnants of the Bridge before. I see all its Throwaways and abandonment . The idea of reusing  50% of what we throw away gives years to the Planet. We are killing the Planet with our Waste, eventually we will have no place to put it, and we will have to dig holes in the backyard or Burn it and further pollute the air. When I Lived in Pennsylvania one of the things that irked me was that we took in waste from other States. In a nature preserve in the Pocono mountains lies a quaint Village known as Huggy Bear. We were Homeowners looking to trade up, we came upon the most beautiful Home in our price range, sitting on three Acres, this was my dream Retreat nestled in luscious nature. Only to find out that as a result of a Landowner with a Crater on his Land decided to make some Money, by accepting Waste. Turned out that old Batteries were Dumped,  leaked contaminated Water for miles in the underground waterways . If you watered the Grass you would kill it. One Hundred and fourteen chemicals were found in the Water.



It was at that point I realized that what the Environmentalists were saying was right all along. Protect the Earth through Conservation. In Huggy Bear it was evident that we were killing the Land. Very little is known or said about Huggy Bear, we know about Love Canal and Three Mile island. When I Lived in Wilkes Barre Pa, I used to see this ominous Cloud that hovered over the Nuclear Power plant. There were nothing Natural about this Cloud that would not dissipate and go away. Who am I to say what goes up must come down. What do I know, they don’t tell you anything anyway, except what you need to know. The oil spill in Louisiana will leave it’s Toll for Centuries on the Wildlife. So what are we doing about doing our part, as Consumers we refuse to recycle in any way shape or form. We dispose of our Garbage out the Car Window and just about anywhere we can find, including the Waterways.

 


Big Industries that we buy their products from, dump their waste water in Waterways that runs hundreds of Miles. We are looking good as an Industrialized World, but very poorly as Conservationists on a mission to save the Land. We need to teach the Kids to save the Land for their Kids. Since we started recycling Billions of dollars have been made and Longevity given to the Environment. All I am saying is, we are smart enough to Colonize the Moon, so we slowly kill Planet Earth, so we can move on to destroy the Moon. Hello!

Conservation and Environmental control will save us from our destruction !!!

 

 

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Red Tide

SCIENTISTS SAY FLORIDA HAS THE SOLUTION TO RED TIDE BUT SPECIAL INTERESTS MIGHT BE IN THE WAY

The state has wetlands that were built with taxpayer money and they’re doing a great job of cleaning the water. The problem is that less than a quarter of the water being treated there is actually from the lake, most of it is from sugar farms.

Author: WTSP Staff

Published: 10/29/18

It has not been a good year for Florida’s beaches. Red tide has killed thousands of tons of marine life. It has cost taxpayers millions of dollars in clean up efforts. It’s making Floridians sick, and it’s not over yet.

Red tide is a natural algae bloom made much worse by human activity.

“We’re feeding algae blooms with tons of fertilizer,” Peter Girard from Bullsugar.org, an environmental group, said. “That is not natural.”

Scientists point to pollution flowing into a major lake.

“This could be done by a kid in a science fair project. Take a red tide sample, just dump a little bit more polluted water in it. It will explode,” Dr. William Mitsch, Everglades Wetland Research Park professor, said.

He says the problem can’t be solved without Florida’s influential sugar industry doing its part.

“I’m sorry they’re the last ones standing that has that land,” Dr. Mitsch said.

And sugar farmers respond.

“When they’re trying to put us out of business because of something that might be their fault, then we’re going to fight back, we’re not going to allow it,” Alan Hammock, owner of Frierson Farms, said.

The problem starts in Lake Okeechobee, Florida’s largest freshwater lake. This summer it was covered in blue green algae.

“Lake Okeechobee has been called the liquid heart of Florida and it’s filthy right now,” Girard said.

Farm, septic tank, and fertilizer run off flows into the lake from the North. Then, that water is discharged into rivers to the east and west making its way to the coasts and feeding toxic algae.

Instead of being diverted to the coasts, activists wish that water flowed South, the way it naturally did more than a century ago before sugar companies converted wetlands into farmland.

“We’re trying to make a living, we’ve been doing it for more than a hundred years, you know,” Mr. Hammock said.

The Hammocks live on their farm. The same way their relatives passed on the company to them, they want to leave the land to their kids.

Ardis Hammock, owner of Frierson Farms, says she doesn’t like the term ‘Big Sugar’ because it is “a derogatory term that someone chose to label us.”

And it would be unfair to label the Hammocks’ 750 acres of farmland ‘Big Sugar.’ But activists use it to refer to companies like U.S. Sugar that give tens of millions of dollars in campaign donations to politicians from both parties. They own 230,000 acres of land and seem unwilling to sell any of it.

“This issue was addressed last year in the Florida legislature,” Judy Sanchez, U.S. Sugar’s spokesperson, wrote in an email to 10News. “There is no need to purchase additional farmland and to put farming communities out of business.”

Mrs. Hammock makes the point that sugar farmers are not responsible for the majority of the pollution going into the lake.

“Why aren’t you stopping it where the problem is? Why do you ever want it to come into the lake?” she said.

But even if the runoff from the North stopped flowing into the lake today, the water is already polluted and would continue feeding toxic algae for at least another decade, scientists say.

So, cleaning the water has to be part of the solution.

 

Life

24 Hours

Anthony Dixon

Russian Roulette

The first 12 Hours without a Cigarette went by understandingly  noticed, but not filled with anxiety and not strung out. Nonetheless by the thirteenth Hour I had purchased a Pack smoked halfway through, I decided from here that 12 hours could be 24 and I wouldn’t Die. What will make me Die  is to continue smoking as if there’s nothing wrong with me smoking. Growing up in the Bronx, I have seen many Addictions. In High School I knew a potential NBA hopeful, he choose to stay in the Schoolyard getting stoned all day, instead of putting down his Baggage he chose  to end his potentials  through Addiction. Make no mistake a Nicotine Addiction is a little slower to kill you than Drugs and Alcohol but certain non the less.

As the saying goes to make an Omlet you first have to crack an Egg. Am I ever cooking, long ago I smoke two packs a Day while being behind the wheel driving commercially. Unwittingly sucking up my own secondhand smoke, even if I had all four Windows down by the time the smoke was drafted out I already inhaled about 25% of what escaped through the opened Windows, some people grudgingly cracks one or two Windows which is not enough to keep all that secondhand smoke from your Lungs. Being conscious that every time you put a Cigarette to your Lips you are swimming against the Tides of Nature is a start. Nature have a way of telling you, something is wrong, with all the bad stuff we put in our Body,  sometimes in excess, Alcohol Cigarettes Bad Foods, we are taking away years from ourselves. Taking Charge of damage control is a big plus, for instance did you know that the Smoke Room at work is one of the worst place to hang out, next time you go in a smoke area before you light your cigarette take a deep breath. One thing I know for a fact, being a smoker it never occurred to me how addicted to Cigarette Smoke I was, when sitting among ten smokers in a partially closed in area with a Roof. The smoke that the eleven of us blow, is able to set off a fire alarm yet not one of us complained of eyes and nose discomfort

When you are a longtime smoker your Lungs will burn but too much tolerance you won’t even notice. When you can get to the point that an enormous amount of smoke can fill your Lungs in such regular seasons, you should start thinking about the problem.

Wheather or not there is a lited cigarette the presence of second hand smoke is overwhelming, now imagine what you are doing to your Lungs when ten other people lights up in that small area. The greatest damage done to my Lungs were done in the last two years working for a company that provided two smoking areas, one was under a Garage, walking through the Garage without having one lit you were smoking. If I had decided to continue smoking I would only smoke in front of a fan knowing that my own secondhand smoke was killing me and everyone around me. I also would only use a Brand that was Organic. Coming down with Tobacco related Illnesses is not a matter of if, it’s a matter of when. Right now you are fine, Six months ago I was fine smoking for over 50 years then out of the blue I had Emphysema along with the periodic Coughing. I waited a lifetime until the damage was done, you should not walk in my footprints. Instead you should start now developing a consciousness that it is not a matter of if, but when. After 50 years of Poisoning my body I am lucky to be alive. Playing Russian Roulette with your Health, one day you will find the Bullet like I did. The one good thing about quitting is it dose’nt matter where and when you stop Smoking, your Body starts repairing itself. Depending on when you quit 100% can be repaired, keeping this in mind by Quitting now you give yourself all kind of chances. When you get to where am at most everything is irreversible all you can do to prevent rapid progression is to Quit. Emphysema is sucking in air that exits slowly. You guys please don’t worry about my Emphysema worry about me giving you a Heads up and you thinking that I am alone.  If I had someone Yapping at me about me getting Emphysema, I probably would have quit 20 years ago. My thing about the things that kill you is the suffering, I never wanted to suffer but if you smoke for over 50 years not expecting retribution from your Body then it is what it is. Neil Young puts it Best” Old Man take a look at my Life it’s a lot like yours”

Health, Life, Parenting And Relationships

A Junkie’s Poem

Anthony Dixon

Substance abuse

A Junkie’s Poem

As the saying goes Fool me once is never enough, over the years observing the Monkey on my back. makes me wonder how many times must I be fooled  to get the message, this isn’t Kansas and haven’t  been  for a long time. The Monkey picks you up and lay you down over and again but he is still your friend.

Mother always told us be careful who you choose for friends because if you walk in filth you will stink. Can’t you tell everyone around is backing away, they treat you like a vagrant and all, you are an outcast from Society, your family and friends, but you still hang tight with your monkey for a friend. You are in and out of the System, it’s now your permanent address even though your dual Residence is the Streets.

I look in the Mirror I see a face but who is it, certainly not the me of fifteen, a smart ambitious kid who wanted to be a pharmacist not the Junkie at the other end of a needle or a stem, not the Geek with a mouthful of Oxi, it’s early afternoon and I’ve lost count. I can hear Billy echoing Eyes without a face, while Janis wails about her Ball and Chain. Who is that man in the mirror, I look further and deeper  and all I see is a skull, the skull has been my moniker science hearing of Casey Jones.

Grateful Dead/forever

Not realizing how wasted I am and will not find my way home until I ask for help. Sitting in a Room of despair striking the fire one more time

trying to get back to the elusive initial high that is never going to come, because that is just the way Crack is, she is a Temptress that will never satisfy the crave. Deep down the shell of the old me the kid that was good with Math that yearns for his old self, I am lost in a fog of Meth vapors and can’t count the step backwards to where it all began.

A Fool is too proud to ask for help while a wise Man knows to come in from the Rain. My life is one big storm taking me further from  reality, while the monkey is taking me to the Cliff.

When I am broke I feel it’s wrath shaking me to find a fix even though what I do for my friend I wouldn’t do for myself. When I hear the Steel Doors slam I now realize that I am lost because here at Home there is no friend only rejection from my Monkey who I left in a cold dark Alley.

P.S. The Lord help those that help themselves